The end of another month

  Time seems to fly.  The older you get the faster time seems to go.  In a few hours it will be November.  I get money two times a month.  I get my SS money towards the end of the month and I get my $175.00 hospital retirement money on the 1st of the month.  So I sort of wish my life away…I look forward to the end of the month and the 1st of the next month because I get a few dollars.
 
  I been trying real hard to  eat  better since I got out of the hospital.  I have not been eating between meals.  I have been trying to eat better meals.  My goal during November is to keep trying to eat better and lose weight.  The losing weight is going to be hard.  
  I need to cut down on drinking Coke. The caffeine in Coke may be one reason I lay in bed, at night, and it seems like my heart is pounding.  Plus I suspect part of it is in my head. 

  Remember a few years ago when I was having all sorts of massive chest pains and I was 100% sure that I had a real bad heart and that my days were numbered.  Then when I had the heart cath and they told me my heart was fine and no problems… I did not pay any attention to my heart rate and did not think about it. 
  They put in a pacemaker and now I lay in bed feeling my heart beat, race and pound. 
  I guess one reason I do not watch medical shows is I will think I have what the person on the TV show has… Smile

  I am going to be 70 in March.  Even I think someone in their 70s is old.  So I am not looking forward to being 70 years old.
 
  I did not get out today. My foot feels pretty good.  Tomorrow I will take my foot out for a test walk.  I will be glad when I can walk normal.

Comments

[Anthony D. Jordan]

Jim,, Your like myself, "the worrying type" I work the night shift as a Security Officer at a very large hospital, and I've been having problems at times for years trying to sleep in the daytime, and most of the time while lying down, I would always worry about dying or having a heart attack (I have high blood pressure) but I am in good physical shape, but have to take a small daily amount of medication for my blood pressure. For some reason, for the last few months, I don't have these dreadful thoughts anymore, but I do still take a few sleeping pills before I go to bed. I guess I came to terms that you can get sick or die at any moment, and you just have to live your life to the fullest and keep a positive attitude.